Pilai-smile

there was a flower named Pilai-smile
she smiled at every passer-by
her named evinced her most adored character
every pernicious soul resided in vicinity
to become pure, bathe in bliss, to live in fun,
and every season came kids
she was loved and so she continued with dignity

one day,
came the wild wind
but couldnot upbraid Pilai-Smile
she bent and graced wind with the same cute smile
wind passed by, delighted and shattered ego.



but today,
she is no more
some one plucked her for her beauty and his pleasure
we all wait, for one so pilai-smile
but'll she be safe again in this cruel and selfish world?

wait II

Every moment I close my eyes,
I see you vivid inside
you remain no different
and I glue to the sight

When my eyes are open, I don’t compel
it automatically happens
u are there in everything I see
a whirly picture of you fixes me

you hypnotize me
with your illusionary appearance
I search for you further
in every glitterance

I miss you when I enjoy
I constantly wish I had you here
I barely can look for a fake smile
My real happiness lies in being with you.

Gray

great truths and great lies
great are the stars that shine in the sky
night falls and comes the day
cruelty declines and falls no prey
good outnumbers the bad at last
so will it make me always say..?

be it good or bad in play
nothing i assume to be gray
be it longer or shorter ray
nothing i assume to be gray

wind blows and uproots the trees
no one could ever stop the breeze
finally the crossroads give me the way
nothing now that i pray
so will it make me always say..?
be its.......gray

no name

sometimes I feel something's wrong inside
n I dunno where to say it all
then my trust shatters apart
when you play me like some game of dart
come here..
I have something I feel
listen so you may understand its real
distances will never easy it off

Life is no static its moving all along
neither a fairy tale anyday
so get up get up from your recluse
get into those spaces in my head
unheard, unseen, not said
take a look..
just turn around n see for yourself
Im waiting for you to open this book of me.

very short compositions

smell the beans of magic,
they offer fragrance of superposition
notice the beauty of intuition,
it stimulates the work of loads
feel the vibe of soul
it delivers the purity oh hearts
***
a black shadow, shadow without a spark, holding breath I wait amidth for thy selfishness,
I am aloof midst of the crossroad, pick and fly me away,
I'm not bad, its just that I cant say.
***
don't dim your spirit lamp when you
see the light fading. speak nothing
bad about things when they go
evil..don't stay helpless when situations go beyond reaches..
just smile and aim for the sky!
***

play of words..

akanksha, uss
ankush ki, jo mera
ansh ha, uss
andheke aishwarys ki, jo
aasman ke
anchal me chipe
aruna ki
annant chah mein
albela
alpviram ki khoj mein, mere
antar man mein
ankit ha.

akansha ek karuna bhare
astitva ki, jo kahin
achanak hi mere
apurn manas mein
abodh hai

akanksha,
akanksha ki nahi
akanksha se
alokit,
alok ki jisme
andhere ki
asha na ho

akanksha bas
asadhya ki,
aap mein se na nirmit
ashanti se pare
akanksha-akanksha ki...akanksha rahit!

possession

Race of mortals
make me least to compete
let me let go
of the things I once possessed
a feel of being with
the material world
Is that I was born with?
I live not to adhere,
inhabiting it,
but not be fixed.
I wish for things
which lose charm
in just change of face
I mourn over subjects
who are immortal in true self.
possessing everything
I wanna continue my life
but let that be
without being possessed.

Search

Days have flown for the nights unknown
high above the mountains I stood alone
holding myself I trespassed the trees
looking for that ultimate peace
soul is aware of your presence around
eyes search for you on the ground
no matter how mysterious it may seem
I rejoice with you in every dream

to hate..

I write a song for people I love to know
Its going to be you if you give me you,
Love me unconditionally and I will be right there next to you
I can give you anything for the love you give me,
thats how I am,
I crave for love in life,
no matter how much I already have,
but once you make me believe me strong
will love you more than you do
for no matter who you are, where are you from
Its time now or forever
I am strong enough
nothing's ever gonna change what then I feel.
A day turns, and nothing like I come to know you lost your love
but you never loved me, If your words were fake
my life at stake. my love was nothing, few words to keep in your case
I will hate you more than you can ever think
hate won't act against you but
will push you away
drain out all the love I ever had.
I know you no more,
who are you, it over and over again.

Stand alone..

The gush of thoughts inside me push me once again here to jot down n join the broken ends... when one surprisingly does something which actually shock him himself..then the effect is stupendous... talking of days when one needed everything and he had none to help..he found ways himself and people helped unconditionally in his quest... may they sometimes revolted to an extend that the scientist in him died but there were times when things were provided to him without any price... this lead human to develop more and more.....to an extend that he could not calm himself down but now when he has many things in his hand...and may be more around him...why is he greedy for others to labour...has he lost interest in doing things ...well...lets c how people and around check themselves before checking others.

I start here..

there is a lesson on every step...We love people around us.... Night is a dream...but life is not any less... going around this world round and round...teaches everyone something or the other...its upon us to ponder on that fact....when you loose the platform where u can express yourself, its the right place to come and express whatever you want to say...coming back to the point from where I started ...I wanted everybody here to learn that I learned something today...No matter how much you can love people around you...things around you...but one can never expect them to be loved more than the offer of love...It not about life...Its about one's life...come on life is given once... and no matter what one needs to live it fully...not waste time by just sitting around day dreaming..how stupid of one to do that...Just think One life to enjoy and day dreams cannot fetch you anything..Its goods to do things which interest you but this does not mean u have to sit and just watch them happening them somewhere in the air...Life is not a balloon of thoughts....Its the train that one needs to catch .....My trail of thoughts shift me to the times when I myself used to enjoy doing absolutely nothing but what did i acquire from all that...loosing time and nothing else...Its just like sitting home with your leg broken and when u cannot do anything then u realize the proximity of the time when u could have stood up to things u always wished to do.... So ofcourse when i have learned from my experience I need to just not think again about loosing time pondering over the lost...Its time i did something fruitful....not nothing like standing up and running around because now I cannot due to this injury of mine...be careful from next time thats what i need to do now...lol..so many things I need to do now..phew...!

to loneliness

Golden days, life was play
Pain was all a world away
Then life took a turn
I had to learn
And I can't go back again

Truths were true and lies were lies
I thought love would never die
But the world moved on
My illusion's gone
And I don't know whom to blame

I heard your voice through a photograph
I thought it up, it brought up the past
Once you know you can never go back
I've got to take it on the other side

Many times Ive been a traveller
I looked for something new
In days of old
When nights were cold
I wandered without you
But those days I thought my eyes
Had seen you standing near
Though blindness is confusing
It shows that you're not here
I close my eyes, and think of home
Another city goes by in the night
Ain't it funny how it is, you never miss it 'til it's gone away
And my heart is lying there and will be 'til my
dying day

Why worry, there should be laughter after pain
There should be sunshine after rain
These things have always been the same

we existed

I don't crawl..
neither do I
pass by,

Im not
stationary..
still, I want to fly.

what's my
faith..
why's an intricate mystery,

showed the
path..
enlightened the slang history.

won the
battles..
and graduated over absolute peace,

settled no
less..
and yes, savers are we.

played being
chess..
today's the future I see.

speaking of
stories..
I fill my solitude waiting,

amid this black
night..
I'm shadow of a long forgotten hero!

a day long back...

sitting on the pavement, she thinks of the golden days when she had her charm ...when she could achieve anything, everything, now she thought she has been reduced to nothing, the walls of freedom had been breached, so had been the text of lonliness, but she felt more bound, and aloof,,,she could see the world around moving..birds chirping..and people doing great....but what she felt for herself now was a full stop...she felt herself incapable of anything,everything, she was late for everything, she couldnot do anythig for a start, all this was not just a figment of her imagination...or wisp of just notions, it felt different, it felt pressurising...she felt a need to do something different, something more, so that she herself could be som1 ...she doesnot want to be just no1,,but wht she wanted to b was som1..known..som1 more popular of her knowledge, attitute, .....her urge was so strong that it was bringing her to pieces,,,,it all reduced her n her feel to nothing but a burden.

There was need of some attention, n some love, that was true..but what she needed most was to do something wc could render her a place in the society..!she waited for some hours, even days..if she could change the situation....

Her fortune said often that she is kind-hearted, cheerful and well-liked......but what she felt was, ntg doing wd all these characters wc she thought could be earned as easily as a glass f water,

for her she was nothing but another creation of god, nothing special, nothing different, just to be there to fill the empty space on this planet earth, which too now was full for people like her, no space , no place!

a tear slowly rolled down her cheek, but she wiped it away as quick as flipping of a page...she thought that even these feelings of hers are going to elope lik all her other feelings that she ever encountered in the course of her life passage...good or bad...whtever one day they all rested in the graveyard of her mind,

she wished her these absolete so not so absolete feelings to change, so she wished for the situation, but what she hoped was she herself could change something about her own self.

she admired but couldnot even count a few number who admired her, though many claimed to but actually how many did..was still an utter confusion....could time take a leap..and pass away such griping n bitter thoughts of hers was what any1 could wish for her....but what she wanted was no leap or jump or change but a gradual shift over , so that this problem(yet problem seems to be too strong) of hers could be solved forever, that in no time could she experience the same again...but complete transformation of it, where she could feel pride n power as she once did ...long ago...that thought brings another thought that whether everything is momentary..whether it is feel of being small or the feeling of pride...is all ds momentary? then why does she fight for it and then why does she crave for something so badly...she, every1 can easily guess...has been trapped from where she herself could come out wd out being harmed, absolutely armed....and that could be possible only through, she thinks, through gradual but constant up risal of her own self!!